“Could The Sun be Blue?" is inspired by a true story of suicide in Chinese society, in which a brother with bipolar disorder ended his life and then told his incomplete wishes and unspoken secrets to his sister through dreams. Through the processing of this "dreaming" material, I construct a "conversation" between the siblings. By reading the monologue in the diary of the deceased brother, the secrets hidden in his heart gradually emerge: the torture of bipolar disorder, the homosexual love, the marginalized psychological state, and the search for self-identity...
By combining moving images, installation and performance, I compose a story with the personal experiences of my own and others. In the exhibition space, two opposite screens represent the sister's perspective of her own and her brother's inner world. I enter this dream narrative from a third-person observation view as the "sister". This is both a conversation waiting to be engaged and a "theatre of cruelty". The brother's experience before his suicide is reinterpreted and redrawn by the sister, which contains the reconceptualization of the unreachable reality from a new perspective and dimension. It also demonstrates my sense of detachment as observers in this contradictory contemporary Chinese society.
Through this moving image work, the audience is led to a blurry and transitional zone where the visible reality and the invisible consciousness are entangled. A place where the daily routines seem to have become the lesions that existed in this era. And the invisible traumas have formed a coexistence with the violence caused by visuals and voices. By capturing the subtle fragments, the boundaries between intimacy and publicity, reality and fantasy, and art and life are blurred. I invite the audience to contemplate the memory of grief and loss together.
